feeling really self conscious about my body lately. none of my shorts fit me and i’ve just straight up gained weight. nothing’s really changed except for the fact that i’ve been working alot lately and i guess it’s all of the stress and not being able to exercise as much that’s added up the pounds for me. i’ve always had a healthy appetite, but now i have to face the fact that i can’t eat as much as i’m used to :/ ever since i turned 22, my body has totally changed and my metabolism has slowed down. i hate this part of growing up. now i worry about cellulite in the back of my legs and all this crap i never used to think about. sigh. i’m changing my habits now before it gets too hard to go back to the body i once had.

:(

I love working at the hospital during the weekdays. On Wednesday, I started helping out with this class called “joint camp” where hip & knee replacement orthopedic patients are brought into one room to do physical therapy exercises together. I love walking the patients from their room & back because I meet so many nice and interesting people. I can’t help but to care so much for them.

If you love what you’re doing, it shows because one particular patient told me the most encouraging things today. She said that I was so sweet and patient, and that she knew that I enjoy what I do & that she will be thinking of me. I won’t get to see her tomorrow, but I wished her the best in everything. To know that you’ve helped make someone’s visit to the hospital a little bit better, makes me feel so happy. There was also a couple that I really enjoyed talking to & they just made me feel like they were my very own grandparents. They trusted me, even though they knew I was still training and it means the world to me. I especially have fun with the patients that are being discharged the day of because they’re full of energy and excited to go home. It’s contagious.

All it takes is kindness and showing people that you care about their well-being, and your life will feel like you’ve done something great in the world. I’m only 22 but I am looking forward to the rest of my life in physical therapy. :) I hope I never lose this appreciation of my job. It would be the worst thing that could ever happen.

i’m just going to finish school & hope for the best. i’m just over all of this. yeah, 4 years passed by so fast and i don’t even know how i got so behind. UGH why is college such a blur right now. i hate school so much. i don’t even know why i’m willing to go to gradschool after this. oh right, so i can make money to repay my student loans & help people right? there are so many other careers i could’ve taken with an associate’s degree and make the same amount of money/ do the same work/ owe less loans. i just really want to be done.

Just finished syncing 27 songs onto my ipod (like 3 weeks after I got it -_-)

& so far I have young the giant, two door cinema, the wanted, phoenix, outasight, kimbra, gotye, foster the people, coldplay, one direction (hehe), etc. I’m thinking this is looking like a good mix of songs so far! Yay. I feel accomplished.

me: you hang up
paulo: okay
me: …
me: you forgot how to be romantic 
paulo: you’re the one who forgot romance
me: FINE when you get here I’m gonna peel all of your crawfish & feed it to you.
me: IF THATS NOT ROMANTIC IDK WHAT IS.
paulo: you’re dumb.
me: okay bye.
paulo: bye.

see what he has to deal with? psycho.

FML just bought an ipod & this gadget does not have flash camera either! what is up with my things not having flash?! at least i can buy a little detachable LED camera flashlight to go with my ipod… not all is lost! finally got instagram too! i missed editing my pics. follow me: ericaruby :-)